Well, what do you know. I'm finally 23. But you know what, I think as I grew older, I come to realize that birthdays are no longer overwhelming. That feeling is like, meh. Yeah I'm 23 but other aspects of life are much more important. I still haven't got a proper planning for the future. I still live with my parents, which I am very much thankful of. Don't know what I could do without them really. I still don't eat vegetables, besides salad and KFC's coleslaw. I don't own my own house or a car. So its nothing to look forward to people.
I sound soooo pessimist don't I. Hahahaha. Oh well I don't know. One thing I'm sure is, I still feel pathetic of myself. Last night before shutting my eyes for good, I kinda like shed a tear or so. Because I feel extremely sad that I'm not making any progress with my emotional side. Its mostly in denial and I'm tired of feeling the same thing, and telling myself to get over it, being all strong and then suddenly I hit rock bottom once again. Penat tau hehe
But oh well. Sack that. Forget about it. Forget about expectations. Live your life and just carry on.
Another note, please pray for my iman. For staying firm and steadfast. Please pray that Allah will remove all of sadness and agony, and that He replaces it with something much more beautiful.