Wednesday, June 15, 2016
I had my worse days. When things just couldn't get any better, it gets worse. And knowing that you can't do anything else besides telling yourself to be strong, alone.
It's always like that.
I hope this period gets over soon. I'm really tired of dealing with the emotional side of me. Its always unstable, it's always demanding to be felt. I can't disband it even though I distracted myself with a lot of things. I know I can totally blame the hormones but it becomes even more damaging when it happens on your birthday. You know how pathetic that feels?
I don't even know what I want. I have no clue on what to do with my future. There are a lot of external factors intruding the decisions I'm about to make. I'm scared that for whatever opportunities I chose to make, it's going to affect all who matter to me.
Dear Allah, guide me... :'(