عايشه منيرة

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A living flesh with a soul made of glass.

Sunday, October 25, 2015

To have a soul.




Sometimes I wonder. People see me as that girl who love to post quotes or poems online, somehow might give the impression that I'm melancholic/sad or just depressed. Well most of the time I am that girl, while on occasional moments I just want people to feel what I feel. I think I've used up all the memory/space of temporal/permanent feelings inside this vessel of mine. And I'm only 22 you know. I know how it feels like to have a soul, and how awful it is to have a tainted/faulty one.

That's how I appreciate life, apparently. I like viewing things into many perspectives. The way I think is like a prism reflecting the white single light and emitting the color ray spectrum. It is colorful, fully proportioned thin lines. Although in my case I dont think the lines would be straight. In fact, it would probably be a very messy one. Like how people would splash paint aimlessly into a painting canvas and seeing the colorful blots getting mixed up. Its messy, but to me it gives a beautiful sight. Thats where I start to think about how people see me. very subjective. As a mess, sad and melancholic girl, but my soul is never empty. Every time I feel like my soul is turning void, I would quickly replace it with a temporal feeling. At times, you can be the most joyous person on earth, you would run and scream all your heart out. While other times, you feel like curling up in comfortable bed all day, not wanting to face the outside world.

That what makes our soul beautiful. We embrace life according to how functional our soul can be. It can excessively efficient, but at the same time it can be very depriving. 



All in all, I could say that I'm Sentimental. Sensitive. Passionate. So deal with it :p 
The next time you see me, you'll know why.
I might be sad, very likely that I might be. But other times, I'm just a girl who has a soul to take care of.
Cheers!


2 comments:

Nur Syahzanani Huda said...

Assalamualaikum kak Aisyah. Your words... they clearly the same as how I feel inside. But I'm not good with words y'know? And I'm sure I'm not a beautiful person myself. Sometimes.. I wonder about my own existence, my future and so on. Because I'm going to finish SPM on the upcoming Monday, I'm clueless on which path should I take. Y'know, I feel like I don't know myself. Sorry for babbling randomly here. Wish you success.

Aisyah Munirah said...

Wassalam hey :)

*Apologies for replying late!*

My words are merely just another form of self-expression. I write to express and letting out the bottled up feelings and thoughts. You could do just the same you know? And don't say that. Everyone is unique and beautiful in their own way, because nowadays beauty itself is really subjective, but I prefer being beautiful on the inside. Spiritually and emotionally :) I wonder that too, like all the time. But looking back to what Allah has gracefully given to me, I know I couldn't be more thankful for this journey. Right now, focus on the closest thing you have to achieve, that is SPM of course. Believe me, what comes after this will not be easy. This is the initiation point of your future and you will have to make a lot of choices, a lot of mistakes but inshaAllah, always ask Allah to guide you always. Never stop praying for all the good things. Good luck and take care! :-)