All praises to Allah, the heavy burden is finally lifted off my shoulder. I was anticipating for the moment until when coming towards the end, it was emotional and couldnt help but to let out those tears of relief. Only Allah knows what is filled in this heart for it could pertain until the end. One thing I know, it was bursting with joy and little touch of melancholic.
Some heavy work huh. I guess I could say that. For a first timer like me, yeah I do eventually take this matter not seriously but for myself, it is like achieving something that was once thought to be impossible but God showed that His plans were much better.
Next time, be a REALIST, not a SKEPTICALIST (is that even a word lol).
For some people, maybe its nothing. Minute. Maybe its what they do every single day. Maybe its the source of life or they were born to become like one. But for me, a lassie who barely thinks about the good of herself (which none exist), who never improved to try and eat vegetables, who cries in the shower and on the pillow, who has the level of self esteem that equates to negative zero, who has trouble waking up early in the mornings (lately), who has insomnia and sleeps at 2am exactly, who thinks too much about the outcome and not focusing on the main subject, who patiently waits for the person who'll never show up even after a gazillion years and still hopes for it to happen, who doesnt know how to make relevant decision and yeah who never tries to control her eating habit, now she looks like shes bred 3 kids......(or even more) or a gigantic dwarf :/
Allah. Dont I sound so pathetic. Thats because I do.
And now, by taking over this project from a person (last session) who was once a great leader to a group of poeple, and still is now. Comparing to me? Lol please I can just laugh at myself. Join in the fun will you?
But. He proved me wrong. He helped me. He guided me. He corrected me. He sent these amazing people, just to look after me (in a way) and I finally found the reason for me stay to stay on this path. Cleared my intention, to gain His redha and spreading the love of the Prophet SAW. Its at least for a start.
Day 1 : Kembara Dakwah Rasul
Day 2 : Sembang Santai bersama Amin Idris and IM Nazrul
The amazing bunch of people whom I love for the sake Allah :")
Can I just say that I was starstuck upon seeing that guy there holding the microphone :/ (forgive me, Im a human being too, and hes already married btw its such a </3)
Day 3 : Malam Cinta Rasul
The sunnah the better. We tried our best in creating that 'sunnah' atmosphere and must I say, I truly felt it.
Imagine seeing your favorite nasheed band since you were young performing live in front of you. Starstruck mode on again :/ typical me. Oh it was Inteam who came to perform, aside from singing they also managed to convey da'wah or snippets on the Prophet SAW. So it was not just merely entertainment but it had the jist that should be conveyed towards the audience.
I believe this would be all. Such an emotional post, well if its not me then it isnt melancholic lol.
I just dont know how to thank the team of MSI. How they invested their time and energy for the programs, how some of them even missed class (-_- yeay for me too). Its that kind of thing where only Allah can reattribute all the things they did. I can only pray that Allah will place them in Jannah and make their lives blessed and filled His love and mercy.
Lots of Love,
Aisyah, Director of MSI (a quirky one though)
Ps. 203 am and I should sleep now