Wednesday, September 25, 2013
The time has finally arrived. The period where God seeks and longed for your attention, and BAM! He throws you a Test, an ordeal for you diffuse into.
And its that time again where I would remind myself, dudeee this is definitely nothing, you've been through worse. You were heartbroken like 12345 times and no one seemed to care besides Allah. You'd feel insecure and inferior repeatedly, whenever you had to face those people who were
You know what, I make no sense at all. Words are all over the place, I cant even write a good structured sentence with proper English grammar. I dont think people would even understand what I am trying to convey.
So yeah its mostly just crap so please dont bother on further reading. Because why? Because writing is the best est therapy when undergoing a difficult phase of life yada yada yada. Besides crying on a pillow before sleeping, writing can also express this bottled up feeling. Words can describe you and yourself best. Words dont actually judge you, they describe you. Sorry for crapping again
These few weeks back has been tough. Everyday is just another day where escaping isnt something necessary. I cant escape, it'll make situation much harder.
But I feel the need to say this :
I'm sorry I couldnt contribute and do much for them. I'm sorry for putting the burden on you people, I'm sorry for being such an ass, I'm sorry for keeping quiet, I'm sorry for muting and not standing up to what's right, I'm sorry for the excessive amount of PREJUDICE on you people, I'm sorry for talking crap, most of the time. I'm sorry for everything. Maybe its about time you people chose a new person to lead. I dont make a good one, I'm full of prejudice+emotions+lesstalking+lackingofideas+uselessbrain and you cant have these elements in order to become a good leader....at least for something that benefits Hereafter
Why? Because WEAK and PATHETIC is my middle name.
Dont ask why. Just dont