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Thursday, June 28, 2012

He Gives

Salam and Heliuw.


Right at this period..I am so so clueless. Helpless, reckless..sigh.
I just wish everything would turn out so easy and smooth. No contradictions between this and that. I really cant decide what's good for my own future. I have exactly less than 24 hours to decide and its killing me really badly.

I appreciated UITM for offering me this course, to be specific Medicine at UNHAS, Indonesia. While other people were buzzing about this course earlier this year, I remained seated and calm because I knew I'm not eligible to be a medical student despite my moderate cgpas. I didn't apply for it, but a lot of people rejected it since its a loan, not even a convertible one. That's the financial issue, including paying for interview's fee which is equivalent to er..ipod shuffle?

I did a lot of research, I repeat, a lot on the place surrounding, the university itself, the people, food, Islam and many more. So far I'm getting positive responses from my own school seniors. So glad to have them giving information and advices. May Allah bless.

What made me so uneasy to decide until at this hour is :

- I have to SEPARATE from my family. Separate from Abrar and Saufi. Miles and miles away from them. Seseri at KL, foundation at Puncak Alam...yeahh you get me.
- Medicine its not something what I've been wanting to do since a child. I'd like to be different for once from other people. To be an expertise at something..like being at lecturer? I don't mind whatever course that is.
- I have already set my 'tawakal' mode since applying for phase 2 UPU. Whatever I received, I would just go for it. 
- But, my parents are hoping me to become a part of the medical team. Even if I'm not destined to become a doctor due to my moderate results, they were hoping I would get into health science courses.
- Another but, my mum always said view it in a Islamic perspective. Being a doctor, but a muslim. A practical muslim. Dapat banyak pahala kan tolong orang. A friend said medicine is also prominent field for da'wah. In the end..looking at it in Islamic perspective, I became less pessimistic.
- Being in this field, you can't have those ' I'd like to try' or 'looks interesting' or merely gaining for the title 'Dr' in front of your name. Its tough. Those 5 years of studying.
- If its my parents's wish..I should grant it. After all of those 19 years of living right?

Guide me Allah. I need your help. May his blessings are always with me, whatever decision I made.
Ameen.


But,

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5 comments:

muhammadramadhan said...

Alhamdulillah, tahniah Aisyah! Kalau tak pasti dalam membuat keputusan, istikharah adalah sebagai satu jalan terbaik untuk menentukan pilihan dan ikhtiar makhluk agar sentiasa dipandu dengan petunjuk dan hidayah ALLAH SWT. Semoga mendapat petunjuk :)

Aisyah Munirah said...

Alhamdulillah, thank you for the thought :)

MarMan said...

munirah plan nak masuk universiti mana?

Aisyah Munirah said...

tak tau lagi :-)

Aimi Syahirah said...

you're planning to enter UM right?