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Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Before and After


HAI SALAM

Dah seminggu ambik result SPM. Hati, apa khabar? Minda, apa khabar? Iman, apa khabar?

OKAYY ANA BIL KHAIR :')

Newsflash : I failed my JPJ test.

To be specific, the slope test. Okay I did my trainings for 12 hours. I think the rest is moderate, okay. The slope test was my main concern. Going on top of the slope was alright, its just that going down is hard. I had a bad time coordinating my legs and hands simultaneously. And my hands arent that freaking strong to lift up the handbrake. WTH -.- lembik. There goes 150 flying above my head. Auntie just called, so my test is repeated next week next week. I cant bloody wait and soo excited to get my P. That's one burden settled. But thats not yet IS IT? Hmph. Btw, I kinda had this heart-to-heart conversation with the JPJ officer while on road test. He was asking me about SPM, school, family, studies and so on. He gave me advices too, not just about the test, but for future undertakings. I was in total disbelievement at first. I met that officer only for 15 mins and he was giving me these advices that I can keep . I felt less distressed upon my failure for slope test after the road test ended. My focus was quite distorted at first, because I was talking on the time, until I forgot to turn the signal lights when arriving near the T junction. Oh well, he gave me bonus marks and I passed! Weehee thank you Pakcik, jasamu akanku kenang selama-lamanya :)

Consider this period, I mean post-SPMresults to be quite exasperating. The forms (upu matrix), looking up scholars that Im eligible and deciding the courses I want. And to be frank, I cant do this all alone. Therefore, Dad was always beside me whenever Im filling out any of the application forms online. If Im doing it alone or when he's at work, Ill be texting or calling him. Mengada sungguh -.-

Throughout my 'berkabung' period, I got scolded, comforted, supported, babbled, judged and moreee. Im grateful to have these people around me. Motivations and advices are given tremendously and continously to me, and couldnt ask for more. I hope Im still the person I know and Im simply not going to let my dark side start controlling me again, possessing my mind gruesomely and let the cloud of doom grip my soul. No no, thats definitely a no.

One thing Im sure of, this :


@KarnivalMaraPWTC



is not becoming a reality for me. I accept, aku redha. Allah has better plans for me I guess? :)

THIS WEEKEND. JOM? :)


Taa everyone.

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